10/04/05 10:35:01 - Chemo
- Category: Random Thoughts
- Posted by: Rick
The doctors said that he probably won’t experience the nausea until two or three hours after he’s finished (which will actually be any minute now). His absolute neutrophil count (ANC – white blood cell count) won’t actually reach zero until after the transplant takes place. Likewise, he probably won’t experience the worst side effects of chemotherapy until about that time, anyway.
Of course, I’m getting all of this second hand from MaryBeth, who is the one who is able to actually be there throughout this whole ordeal. I suppose it’s not so bad, I’ve actually arranged to be there all of next week, which will (hopefully) be the worst of his time. I wish I could be there more, but we have to deal with that whole “paying bills” thing, so it’s rather impractical. I know that it’s extremely hard for MaryBeth to be with him all the time in the hospital, not to mention how hard it is for Aren. It’s still difficult for me.
Just before Lily died, I decided to go home to be with Aren. I think I made the right decision – Aren needed someone just as much as Lily did, if not more – but there will always be a little question, a twinge of pain whenever I think about her death. Did she miss me in her last moments? Did she feel like I abandoned her? I’ll always wonder. Now, I feel like I’m being forced to be away from Aren. I wish I could console myself by saying that I’m doing it for someone else who needs me even more, but I can’t. It’s just hard being away from them right now.
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Aren is undergoing a bone marrow transplant to fix the immune system defects that caused the loss of his little sister, Lily. To learn more, click here.